so i’m totally a bah humbug…i wasn’t always but now i am. i’m alone when everyone isn’t…i’m falling in love with someone that doesn’t feel the same way about me…again. i did this before, and all it got me was a broken heart and a baby. and while my daughter is my life, the broken heart bit sucks. i am worried he is going to hurt me so bad i will become horribly depressed, again. yes this is what christmas does to me. it brings up the loneliness, the fact that i’m not happy with myself, that i am alone for another holiday. i was brought up in a family filled with love and i crave it. but i don’t get it…what to do…i don’t know. i wish he loved me.
